Changes

I really wonder what are friends for? No idea sometimes but seriously finally i know who is those that are sincere to you and who are not. Whatever it is just be sincere to everyone and be who you are. That's all i can say. 

Changing? I think i am changing loads. Being better or worse? Maybe some will think that i am changing to a worse human and vice versa. Whatever it is, I know myself.

Yes sometimes I think about all my past and all but it's something good i would say. Alright let me say it loud. Everyone made mistakes and everyone deserve to change if they have the determination to change to a better person. We forget about our past and move forward, in a way we remember the lesson and never repeat it again. Past is always the past, it can be erased and we always look forward. Yes it is true that past could haunt you but you can always fight for it, cure your fear and be who you want now but not before. We deserve a better life. WE LEARN FROM OUR PAST and MISTAKES :)

To those out there, I seriously don't mind you calling me anything or saying anything bad about me. I know who am i and those sincere friends that i have could only understands me. If you are not one of them, it's okay because i really don't mind. It's not a big deal thing to worry about. I love myself and i seriously cannot care so much on how people look at me. Perhaps i can care for 1 or 2 but not hundreds or thousand of them?

Also, if you treat me as your friend, please treat me sincerely and stop with all the lies and backstabbing and being so fake to me. I hate it so much. I rather you don't talk to me rather than acting in front of me. This sounded really irritating and annoying. I really hope if you treat me as your friend, treat me sincerely. If not please fuck off from my life and don't even think of stepping in to ruined my life. I really appreciate you/him/her whoever for doing so. Thank you so much :)

I know there is people calling me bitch, slut and perhaps fucking slutty bitch? I really don't mind because it really doesn't concern me at all but of course mind your words because what goes around comes around. In a way, some people even say i am childish and acting like a small girl, not mature? i wonder who is not mature and being like a kid. I know what am i but you wouldn't know. I am complicated in a way and i admit i am! Being this way is good because i don't want anyone to read what am i thinking and what is with me. I am seriously unpredictable. I can be good to you and evil. Either way if you want it :)

I had a long long talk with baby boo yesterday and i am glad that he is a good listener. I really feel comfortable telling him my problems. I changed. Changing to something better. Something that no one expected. I recovered real fast isn't it? I actually used plenty of ways to do it. I am proud of myself seriously! Boo tell me something very true. 'You lost something, but you will gain something through it'. Guess he was right. I really lost part of the things in my life but i gain even more back here. Friends, freedom and everything. I am glad this happens. Everything happens for a reason and this is damn true. Nothing happens for no reason. God are trying to hint something. God are helping you throughout your life and of course setting up loads of obstacles for one to go on. I am glad. After everything i am still strong and standing up with my own feet to survive! Also, take this ' WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND'. Believe it and take it seriously. It will actually happen now or later on in your life. You couldn't stop it to happens because it will! Be good to me and i promise i will be treating you 10, 100 or even million times better :)

Life is always changing. The only thing i could say is the past is something you can take as a lesson and learn from it. Do not repeat your mistake! Once you fall, climb up and try again. Nothing is impossible and failure is not end of everything.

Alright. Until than i am glad that i am changing to better and better! Thanks for all the support from my love one especially my family and someone special in my life i would say. And not forgetting those who are there for me when i am really down and needed so much comfort. Love you guys to the maximum and God bless all throughout the whole journey of life. I am glad i am blessed by God and my family.

Please and FYI, if there is anything you people don't like about me. Shout out loud and i would attempt you to see what is wrong here and there. I would appreciate it much and seriously! :) But if you like me loads, comment on me too. HAHAHA :P